After months and months of denials, Lindsay Lohan finally admitted to an alcohol relapse on her Oprah docu-series last night. And I don’t want you to take this the wrong way, but that might actually be a good thing.
Okay wait, don’t flip out and jump down my throat. I’m not saying it’s good that she relapsed — I’m a surprisingly strong advocate for her recovery, given that this is her sixth stab at it. What I’m saying is that it’s good she admitted it. I think that’s a huge step in the right direction. After all, the standard number given for the percentage of addicts who relapse after rehab is 40 – 60%, so Lindsay is in good company. What distinguishes the people in that group who move forward in the process is their ability to acknowledge a slip-up and take responsibility for their actions.
Which, to be fair, Lindsay had quite a bit of difficulty doing. In the newest episode of Lindsay last night, her life coach AJ Johnson asked her whether she’d been drinking, and Lindsay responded defensively:
“I thought we were friends, why are you asking me this on camera?”
AJ explained that Lindsay’s mom Dina Lohan had told her about the slip, but Lindsay continued to deny it, accusing her mom of ‘projecting on her’ because she’d been drinking herself. But AJ persisted, saying she’d found wine in the apartment next day, causing Lindsay to get so upset that she left for Los Angeles and didn’t speak to AJ for an entire week. (During which time she was photographed at a party allegedly reaching for a bottle of wine, which she deflected by saying she was reaching for her bag.)
Pretty typical behavior of someone who feels backed into a corner, but to Lindsay’s credit, she did eventually come clean and admit to slipping up a month earlier. And on camera, no less.
“I rushed into a relationship…I jumped right into a relationship where we weren’t on the same page. I wasn’t considering the fact that the person I was seeing does drink and yeah. [...] I had some wine. It’s okay to admit it. [...] It’s really scary. [...] It took me a bit to realize, but then I thought, why am I holding this in? ’Yeah, fuck it, I screwed up and that’s okay. That’s a part of life.”,’ she confessed, while vowing to ‘try and stop it happening again.’
She also said she felt ‘so much guilt’ for the setback and vowed to ‘try and stop it happening again’.
It might seem like she’s not taking it seriously, but I actually think this attitude is a really good sign. Part of recovery is forgiving yourself for mistakes and moving forward. Which I’m really hoping Lindsay does, because this honestly is her last chance. Even Oprah says so.