I really wasn’t sure what to think going into Lindsay Lohan‘s post-rehab interview with Oprah on Oprah’s Next Chapter last night. On the one hand, we’ve been in this very position five times already, watching Lindsay come out of rehab and waiting to see if she’ll change, and we’ve been let down every time. It’s hard not to be pessimistic about her chances for success, and I can empathize with the people who aren’t willing to suspend their disbelief for a sixth time.
On the other hand, though, I’ve been hearing murmurs for weeks now that this time seems different; that it might be LiLo’s best shot at success. I’ve heard she’s been cutting out people she feels are toxic to her life, that she went from rehab to a sober coach, and that all she wants to focus on is work. If you’re an open-minded sort of person, these are all good signs, I just couldn’t tell which way I was leaning. I’ve been burned before.
But surprisingly, her interview with Oprah actually pushed me in a more optimistic direction. I say ‘surprisingly’, because I typically find Lindsay to be very smug and brusque during interviews, as if she has somewhere to go and can’t believe your audacity at asking questions. It’s a frenetic energy that made me uncomfortable to watch, but it was shockingly absent last night, suggesting to me that she really is clean and sober like she claims to be.
The interview was filmed when Lindsay was four days out of her sixth stay in rehab, and here are some of the highlights of the hour-long broadcast:
- Lindsay revealed that her first time in rehab was for an ‘Ambien scare’. She denies being addicted to it, but says she’d been self-medicating on it for about a month, and decided to check herself into treatment when she began hearing how addictive it was.
- Admits she’s never taken rehab seriously before, as evidenced by the fact that she got a second DUI within two months of leaving her second rehab stay, which had been ordered for her first DUI.
- Thinks that she subconsciously wanted to go to jail in 2010 (when she served two weeks of her ninety day sentence), just for some peace. Oprah gave her some eyes on that one, and said, “How desperate is that?” Yeah.
- She decided to take rehab seriously this time because she ‘hit a wall’ and was ‘tired’. Nothing she’d tried was working, so she was finally open to it: “In the past I’ve never surrended to the fact that I just need to shut up and listen.”
- She has finally admitted she’s an addict. In those words.
- Her particular addiction is to alcohol, which she says was a gateway to other things.
- She admits she did cocaine more than the 3-4 times she previously insisted, but still says it’s only between 10-15 times.
- Claims she’s never injected anything except B-12 shots at the doctor.
- She thinks she was addicted to chaos and admits that she’s her own worst enemy.
- What’s different this time is, “I’m not taking Adderall. That’s a big thing.” She believes she was addicted to it, which I believe from the description of what went on the set of The Canyons.
- She references Marilyn Monroe and Judy Garland as people who inspired her to get into movies in the first place. Ah, the irony.
- Says she went off track right after Mean Girls when she moved to LA at age seventeen or eighteen and was making $7 million a movie and wasting money with no guidance.
- Her first DUI wasn’t a wake-up call, she says, and jail was ‘the biggest wake-up call’, but still not enough to completely change her behavior.
- She realized she had a problem over a period of time, not all at once.
- She doesn’t feel that her parents have exploited her or taken advantage. She thinks their problems are with each other, and has asked them to keep their family life more private in the future, but they’ll both remain a part of her life.
- Says she was ‘on one’ and lying in the recorded phone call where she accused her mom Dina Lohan of being on coke. A recording that Michael Lohan later leaked to the press.
- Owned her bad behavior, not blaming it on anyone else, with sentences like, “I did that” and “It’s a process of growing up.”
- Agrees with us that, sadly, it’s boring for people to watch her recovery, so understands why they’re rooting for her failure.
- Admits that she was so distracted in the past that she wasn’t en pointe about respecting other people’s time or appreciating her own.
- Two days after the interview, Lindsay canceled her planned trip to Europe on Oprah’s advice.
All in all, I was pleasantly surprised, you guys. Oprah was gentle-ish with her, but every question that she asked, she got an answer to, and I felt an openness and taking responsibility for her actions that’s been absent in the past. Lindsay ended the interview by saying, “I’m different. I feel different,” to which Oprah responded, “I want you to win.”
Yeah girl. Me too. I mean it.