As Taylor ArmstrongÂ has become more and more and more candid about the abuse she suffered under husband Russell Armstrong, each interview seems to uncover a gruesome new detail. Now, instead of getting it piecemeal from Real Housewives of Beverly HillsÂ episodes and interviews, Taylor has excerpted her memoir Hiding From RealityÂ in the new issue of Us Weekly. Her accounts are even more horrifying, detailing Russell’s jealousy and resentment of her and their daughter Kennedy.
The most shocking quote, however, was Taylor’s admission that she believed staying on Real HousewivesÂ would keep her safe:
I figured that having my life on camera would encourage Russell to control his temper and help our relationship. This may sound delusional, given all I had been through, but my dream was that Russell would change.
However, because he was abusing her even when they were first interviewing for the show, it soon became clear that he wouldn’t let a pesky thing like cameras get in the way. I agree wholeheartedly with Mommyish that once Bravo producers realized that the abuse was going on, they should have stepped in and helped Taylor and Kennedy.
That wasn’t the only part to give us pause; here are three more disturbing quotes that illustrate the depths to which Russell scrutinized and tortured Taylor.
1.Â One night, looking remorseful, he suggested, “The next time I hit you, you should hit me back.”
About a month later, he was banging my head against the window of the car as he drove us home from a party at which I had angered him. I remembered what he had told me, and so I reached over and half-hit, half-pushed at his face with the palm of my left hand. He stopped banging my head, but when he turned to look at me, his face was flushed and consumed by an expression of pure, murderous rageâ€¦
“Don’t ever do that again because I almost killed you,” he said. “One of these days, I’m afraid I’m going to kill you.”
2. After discovering that Russell had hidden a tape recorder beneath her desk at home:Â For the next nearly six years, I always assumed I was being recorded in the car and at home. I was always careful to make sure the content of my conversations was very clear.
3. When RussellÂ found Kennedy asleep in bed with Taylor:Â ”Your mom’s a whore,” he yelled. “Your mom’s a bitch!” Kennedy started to cry hysterically.
According to Amazon, Hiding From Reality: My Story of Love, Loss, and Finding the Courage WithinÂ will be published on February 7.