Kim Kardashian Didn’t Want To Disappoint Her Fans By Calling Off Her Wedding, But She Did Marry For Love

About a day after the news that she was filing for divorce broke, Kim Kardashian has posted an official statement to her website. Part apology, part explanation (albeit a vague one), she denies that this her marriage to Kris Humphries was a business deal and cops to her own naivete in jumping into marriage. And by God, it actually sounds genuine. (In honor of Kim being all emotionally naked, here’s a photo of her without makeup. I’ve always thought she looks prettier than when she’s all glossed up.)

“I would not have spent so much time on something just for a TV show!” she writes. However, she defends her decision to film an extensive wedding special by saying that the Kardashians are used to filming every big event in their family. “We share, we give, we love and we are open!” she says. This compulsion to share/obligation to satisfy the fans sound like it’s what messed her up here.

In Kim’s Fairytale Wedding: A Kardashian Event part 1, an issue that came up over and over again was Kim’s tendency to fall hard; Khloe warned Kris that they call their sister “Elizabeth Taylor” for a reason, and he even used that argument against Kim. In her letter, she admits the same:

Everyone that knows me knows that I’m a hopeless romantic! I love with all of my heart and soul. I want a family and babies and a real life so badly that maybe I rushed in to something too soon. I believed in love and the dream of what I wanted so badly. I felt like I was on a fast roller coaster and couldn’t get off when now I know I probably should have. I got caught up with the hoopla and the filming of the TV show that when I probably should have ended my relationship, I didn’t know how to and didn’t want to disappoint a lot of people.

Earlier in the letter she says, “I married for love,” but now her message is that she’s following her heart—two very different things, apparently. It’s too bad that following her heart didn’t mean that she could have taken the time to let her relationship — with Kris or whatever guy — mature until they both knew that they were definitely ready to spend the rest of their lives together.

Kim’s letter has nearly 1,300 comments, most of them overwhelmingly positive from her fans. One even puts forward the theory that Kris just “is not a Kardashian” the way that Lamar Odom and Scott Disick have worked their ways into the family: These men understand the role of a sportive [sic] spouse, the Kardashian “world” and a private life with their partner. Meanwhile in New York City, fans held a vigil outside of the Kardashians’ Soho store Dash.

So while it was a good move for her to formally apologize, she doesn’t have to worry about losing her fans’ respect.